Ah, love. Sometimes — and in shojo series, it's very frequently — it's entirely one-sided. When a character encounters that certain special someone who's totally out of their reach ("takane no hana"), a conveniently timed airplane flies by, and the unrequited lover spends several seconds staring at the airplane as it flies off into the distance, forever out of reach. In fantasy or historical series where there are no airplanes, a bird appears instead.
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To be clear, I'm not in love since I haven't yet been patched to handle such capacities1, but after moving to California's Silicon Valley very recently2 I've found that when I take a break to smoke a cigarette, I often find myself staring at an airplane. In contrast to the smog of LA, the skies here are very much on the clear side, and since the San Jose Airport isn't too far off, these aircrafts are easy to catch.

As a fan of symbolism, I can't help but feel that staring at these airliners is supposed to signify something, but as it's portrayed in fiction (fine, in anime, specifically), the allegory doesn't really apply to me. However, the wandering daytime reverie still seems to fit the bill.

I'm longing for and missing something, but I'm not sure what it is.

Actually, you know what? I've not had legitimate internet access for a week now, and using my phone to tether an internet connection is slowly driving me to the brink of tears. Also, my furniture has yet to ship up here so it looks like I'm squatting in my own apartment.

All things considered, things up here are going way better than expected and it's only the first week. Silicon Valley has so far treated me very well, passing smiles and unsolicited good morning's and sincere excuse me's, and I'm still very much a stranger out here. So there's that warm welcome -- but concerning these airplanes, maybe the earnest desire I'm feeling is the unrequited love of NOT SLEEPING ON THE DAMN FLOOR.

  1. We tried it in beta and it threw a bunch of errors, so we're slating it for a later release.
  2. O HAI, DID I MENTION I MOVED NORTH?
  • stoodert

    "Sleeping on the floor" is yet another connection you can make between your life and anime! (as they do it all the time in Japan)

  • http://www.kacijohanna.com/ Kaci Johanna

    Dude, hope your furniture gets there PRONTO. Sleeping on the floor is no good for the soul (unless it's by choice, of course... then whatevs).

  • http://theinbetweenismine.com/ San

    I hope your furniture arrives soon (do they move it FOR you? While this is nice, it also sucks because you have to wait for it!). Welcome to NorCal! ;)

  • Cecilia Berlin

    Go let some tears out - phone tethering sounds totally legit as a catalyst ;) Also, kudos for taking the plunge and moving! This warrants a very important question tho - do I get to see you over Xmas this year? The Swedes are coming... :D

  • http://www.treavioli.com/ Treavor Wagoner

    The "longing for and missing something" feeling could also be feeling unsettled. I felt that way before I bought furniture 2 months here in Seattle.