Blogging on a Friday night. I know, right?
I decided it might be a good idea to get some thoughts down before I head out and start my real Friday night, especially since this is a week I’m going to want to forget in the short term but remember in the long term.
Death: It’s true. I’m going to a funeral for a friend this Sunday. Though I wasn’t as close to him as some of my other friends who had known him longer, I still feel he had an important role in my life as he was there to see some pretty important events. That’s how you know the quality of a person – when the experiences shared, however few, are memorable enough to sink those events deep into your very being. Cheesy, right? Well, I’m proud to have experienced something that is archetypal cliché. All things that are important are inevitably cliché. So says a certain Chuck Klosterman, and I stand by it.
Heartbreak: This seems to be the year for it. I’m seeing it tear down walls around me, and after the most recent one that has happened within my periphery, it makes me wonder why I am so lonely being single. Do I really want to let someone that close so that they can then do the same thing to me that I’ve been watching for the past year? My heart is a death star, and do I really want to let a rebel girl be able to drop a bomb in my tiny little vulnerable hole? I hope that analogy got a laugh…
My point is, I don’t think I really need that right now. Sure, they say, when you’re young, get out there and experience life and experience relationships – but there are too many things going on, too many things moving way to quickly in my life that require my brain to take on cat-like reflexes to catch and deal with everything. It’s probably not wise to let someone derail that; or to let them on the ride for fear they might just fall off of it. I’m moving too quickly. And I have no intention of slowing down. And it’s only now that I realize this about myself.
Needless to say, I’ve grown up a lot in the past year. And who would think that it would occur this late in the game?
In other less introspective news, here’s a LOLcat:
